Monday, June 6, 2011
walking
started walking today walked 4.5 miles, gonna bring that up a notch everyday and then gonna start running.
Sunday, June 5, 2011
FireFighter
So i am going to take the firefighters exam this september. Im going to be studying for that all summer as well as trying to lose weight and get in shape. Im actually rather hoping on getting called so that it will give me something to look forward to.
great
well i fucked up big time. So I had a panic attack last night and the night before because I didn't know what I was going to do with my life and I was freaking out about being alone. So i texted my ex-girlfriend and asked her if she could talk tomorrow. She said sure why whats up I told her I was having a panic attack about my life and everything. So she proceeded to call me, and try and make sure I was ok. I told her I have been freaking out because I cant keep myself busy and that this break up sees to be hitting me extremely hard. It was terrible. I also said that I felt like she was doing much better than me. She said she wasn't and that its been hard on her but she's just been keeping busy and preoccupied. Then I told her that i just miss her a lot and that Im scared I was never going to see her again. She proceeded to tell me that we were over for good and that, we weren't getting back together. That hurt me a lot. I was freaking out because I knew that was the truth but I didn't want to believe it. I said that maybe we shouldn't talk anymore, and she said she's been trying to tell me and hint that to me for a while. I see it now but I guess I just took it as her being busy because she is always busy. At this point She was getting a little mad at me because I was being stupid (in my mind). Then I asked her to be honest with me and She said of course, and I proceeded to ask her a question. Not the question I actually wanted answered but the first thing that popped into my head. It was a very stupid question and I completely regret asking it. I knew the answer was no but i asked it anyway. I was a complete moron about this, I really just wanted to know if she missed me. So after I asked her the stupid question she got extremely offended and mad at me (which is understandable, I would be furious with me as well). She yelled fuck you Rob at me and hung up. I tried calling her back to apologize but she wouldn't take my phone call. I don't blame her one bit. So texted her saying I was so sorry about everything and that I understand she doesn't want to talk to me again. I also said that this would be the last time she would hear from me. I'm not going to text her or call her or anything. She broke up with me for many reasons including getting away from me and living her own life free of anyone else. She said she still wanted to be friends but I don't know how to do that, at least not now, so soon after our break up. So I guess I'm just sad that Im losing one of my best friends. Its going to be hard I know but I will try and get through this. I have to. I know she is going to get through this better than me because she is a stronger person than I am.
On a side note, I just want her to be truly happy, but I wish that happiness included me. She promises me that we will see each other again but I am almost very certain that after last night, she will never want to see me again. I cant say I blame her. It just sucks because I spent 2 years of my life with her, and since Im only 21, that is 10% of my life. It is just hitting me a little harder than I would have thought because I am losing a lot of friends. A lot of people I might never see again. Friends from school who graduated, and even some friends from home who are moving far away to better things.
If you find and read this Tricia, I just really want to apologize for everything I have ever done to hurt you. No matter how big or small. I am truly sorry, and I hope that one day we can be best friends
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
day 2
started off well
i threw two goals to this new kid john, threw a hammer for a point to tom and handblocked doobs. thats when we were up 3-0. After that i didn't keep score. Safe to say i lacked alot after that. I started walking and not playing to my full potential. i walked a lot after that but i still caught a few goals and threw a few assists. It was a long practice but it was a decent one. Have a few prospects, pete looks like hes gonna stay, john, keith, mike all look good. For the womans team we got rennes sister, and christina; so they look good too.
My game was allright, and i divided it into my pros and cons:
pros:
short passes
give and gos
deep cuts
hands
cons:
deep game
cuts
deep throws
field vision
speed
layouts
things i have to work on alot
Monday, August 23, 2010
new semester
Just hit up the gym with b-cams, ran for 10 minutes on treadmill, free weights, bench, ran for 5 minutes.
Must go to gym tomorrow if i cant make practice. gotta work on throws and cuts.
Classes are done for today they went all right, day two tomorrow. Gonna run CTF tomorrow night and hit the gym right before hand.
-shower
-dinner at the girls
-sleep
Monday, June 28, 2010
long time coming, lots to tell
Its been a long time coming and things have been great for the most part. I was out of commission for a while with a partially torn hamstring. But dont you worry i am back and trying to get better than ever.
Ultimate:
Being out of the team for over 6 months sucks, it was painful to watch my team play, knowing full well that i couldn't. To be fair the team did its best without me. I almost think that i wont play next year knowing that they can be so much greater without me. I mean I will try to pick up my game and get faster and be a much better handler and cutter. My main problems re in confidence and skill. I lack skill their for my confidence goes down their for i play worse then i would. In the time that i have been off, my throws have gone down significantly and my speed is now slower than the speed at which Hawaii moves closer to japan (about 1 inch every year). I have one good thing going for me, and that is my height.
I am a 6 foot 5 inch tall monster who comes down with a lot of discs when they go up, I have decent hand eye coordination and i don't mind getting physical. Thats the extent of my game. This summer is either going to make or break me for the team. I am either going to be on the team and a primary handler who can beat almost everyone in the air(including Thomas) or i am going to be the towel/water boy for the team.
I have to work on my game so starting tomorrow i will be doing part of the SNERTZ workout once a week with some added things of my own. If I can lose 30 pounds by the end of September I will be where i want to be when it comes to starting to be in shape. If i lose that weight i will be a much healthier person, and a much better looking one. I am going to ask dave and doobs to give me a try out to see if I should even be on the team, or if i should do more.
Training:
Right now i have been doing push ups and sit ups and trying to do excruciators every night. So far i think i have lost maybe 5 pounds maybe. I don't know, i feel it in my jeans. I will also be doing a track workout once a week and working on throwing and cutting once a week as well. One big test for me will be wildwood, and then the biggest test will be the zodiac and the one i want dave and doober to give me.
Throws:
my throws are not where i want them to be, my flick drops too fast and it very o-i. My backhand is so weak that i feel like if i throw it full force at someone, it would be more like a push pass. I have to work harder on these two throws if i wish to succeed on the team.
Right now i feel as though Steven Stieglitz is right when he called me a liability on the team, i don't run I'm slow i cant keep up with my man, and my throws are not that good.
Im going to try and make my own self cutting drill that i can do but im not sure what i am going to incorperate into it, any pointers?
Beer:
So my friends and I decided to make our own beer and so far its fermenting. If it goes well we will experiment with out own flavors and hopefully eventually mass produce it and create Staten Island's first brewery or brew pub. I was just thinking that i could try something with mint but im not sure how it would go but we will see.
Ultimate:
Being out of the team for over 6 months sucks, it was painful to watch my team play, knowing full well that i couldn't. To be fair the team did its best without me. I almost think that i wont play next year knowing that they can be so much greater without me. I mean I will try to pick up my game and get faster and be a much better handler and cutter. My main problems re in confidence and skill. I lack skill their for my confidence goes down their for i play worse then i would. In the time that i have been off, my throws have gone down significantly and my speed is now slower than the speed at which Hawaii moves closer to japan (about 1 inch every year). I have one good thing going for me, and that is my height.
I am a 6 foot 5 inch tall monster who comes down with a lot of discs when they go up, I have decent hand eye coordination and i don't mind getting physical. Thats the extent of my game. This summer is either going to make or break me for the team. I am either going to be on the team and a primary handler who can beat almost everyone in the air(including Thomas) or i am going to be the towel/water boy for the team.
I have to work on my game so starting tomorrow i will be doing part of the SNERTZ workout once a week with some added things of my own. If I can lose 30 pounds by the end of September I will be where i want to be when it comes to starting to be in shape. If i lose that weight i will be a much healthier person, and a much better looking one. I am going to ask dave and doobs to give me a try out to see if I should even be on the team, or if i should do more.
Training:
Right now i have been doing push ups and sit ups and trying to do excruciators every night. So far i think i have lost maybe 5 pounds maybe. I don't know, i feel it in my jeans. I will also be doing a track workout once a week and working on throwing and cutting once a week as well. One big test for me will be wildwood, and then the biggest test will be the zodiac and the one i want dave and doober to give me.
Throws:
my throws are not where i want them to be, my flick drops too fast and it very o-i. My backhand is so weak that i feel like if i throw it full force at someone, it would be more like a push pass. I have to work harder on these two throws if i wish to succeed on the team.
Right now i feel as though Steven Stieglitz is right when he called me a liability on the team, i don't run I'm slow i cant keep up with my man, and my throws are not that good.
Im going to try and make my own self cutting drill that i can do but im not sure what i am going to incorperate into it, any pointers?
Beer:
So my friends and I decided to make our own beer and so far its fermenting. If it goes well we will experiment with out own flavors and hopefully eventually mass produce it and create Staten Island's first brewery or brew pub. I was just thinking that i could try something with mint but im not sure how it would go but we will see.
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